What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Disappointment
Where Your life is Going
Looked down on
Death
Commitment
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Okay, I hate being alone. I used to love it, and till now, at times, I really do. It's just, I don't exactly want time to myself nowadays. I want to treasure the moments, I don't want to waste time, I want to spend my holidays properly. Before it's too late.

Every time I have a semester break, the next sem will be completely different from the other. I won't deny that change is good, but too much of it, I don't like. I tend to compare the different semesters. In terms of friendships, studies, environment etc. Not for the benefit or loss of anyone, but just to see how much I've gone through, how far I've come and see what has changed in my life. Answer: ALOT.

Like for example, last semester (not term) break in October, I had an average paying part-time job, I was busy with my abang's wedding preparation, I had the abangs to hang out with, I got into a relationship.
Now, I have a whole new circle of friends and no job.

At some points, I don't know if it's a good change or a bad one. There are advantages and disadvantages, but somehow I always find the darkness when everythings bright. It gets pretty lonely sometimes, at night, when I'm supposed to be sleeping. I don't like to have so much time in my hands, I want a freaking job to get myself busy and to make myself feel like I've accomplished something during my holidays. But for now, I'm stuck with nothing.
N-O-T-H-I-N-G.

I don't like sitting in silence, not as much as I used to.
It literally kills me.
I'm afraid to be alone nowadays, why?
Cause I don't want my thoughts to eat me up alive.
The thoughts get scarier every night.
I need to be busy.
I need to do something.
I need to be with people.

I need to runaway from silence.
It's my worse enemy.