This P gave me the link to my December'07 archives. He showed me my 11 Dec'07 post, where I made a list. Looking back, I've lost many and gained just as many people in my life. Every year, I make a wish to let the people who have helped me through that year to stay with me. Only some stay, the rest leave. Reflecting on 2008, only realising now that 2009 is just 9 days away, doesn't do anything to me anymore. A new year, so what. It's becoming a routine. It's like, every year we celebrate the pain and hurt that we'd be getting from the year ahead. Hmm, maybe it hasn't gotten to me yet, this whole festive mood. Not yet. It will.

Christmas is just 3 days away. I just realised that too. My Christmas for 5 years have been nothing but trying to feel what I felt when my Mom was around. She really bought the festive mood to the house. Christmas morning would be filled with song of praise blasting in the house. We'd wake up relunctantly, shower, get dressed for the Christmas service that would be so early in the morning, listen to my Mom's nagging (which I miss), say a little prayer as a family and leave for church. That was then, when the Christmas tree would be set up as a family. That was then, when we'd put decorations up and presents under the tree. That was then, when we'd go Christmas shoppng as a family, buying gifts for our cousins and new clothing for ourselves. That was then.

2008 has been great. I can say that I found myself, and I've learnt to be contented with life. This year would confirm end so much more happier than last. Turning 18 was one of the best thing this year, helped me through so much. I can't explain. Not about the age, but what came with it. Good or bad, that's what each and everyone of us have to face in life.

In 2008, I shared my journey of ups and downs with special people.
Brother, Swee.
Girlfriend, Abigail.
Sexy, Jaclyn.
My cousins, Dionel, Lina & Mel. LOL THATS ALL IM LEFT WITH?
(you all made it in my list again.)

Bestfriend, Azizah. :D
F4, Pratheep, Shamini, Rino.
Pisangs.
Mehmeh, Xingying
(Thank you for all your support and encouragement. Your randomness and how you sometimes acknowledge me on your blog, realy makes/made my day/s. Lots of love to you.)

I don't want to keep naming. Later I forget people. But you know who you are. Thanks for being there for me, when I needed you.

Another major thing that happened in 2008. My dog, Skippy, ran away. I tell you, it was really devastating. I remember not sleeping that night, I remember not being able to breathe, I remember getting nightmares before that actual event. Maybe it was a sign, come to think of it. But I remember 2 people who really helped me through. Pratheep, for bothering to come down and help me look for Skippy and Swee for making me laugh. I remember one person who pissed me off too HAHA, but it was at that time.

2008 was great. I've changed as a person. I've learnt to love myself, so that I can in-turn love others. Azizah has always been there. I don't know how to thank her. She makes me happy. So so very happy. I love her. Pamela and I will never stop flowing. We are still planning on writing that book, we've got tons of ideas. Talking to her seriously can make me feel so much better. Cause we laugh at what others would cry at. :)

I fell down Kent Ridge Park on May 2nd while cycling. Something I should remember too. How those 3 guys would still be my friend even after seeing me at my most ugliest-ever-felt state EVER. I remember when I went back to school after 2 days of MC, Pam and Wani will just run to me. Do you remember that?

Jolene, Joanna, Fiza and our project work. All the non-stop laughters and how we always know how to crap and somehow hand up the assignments on time. My Miss. Sun-filled-life, Miss. Dancing Queen and Miss. Superstar. :D

I can go on. Shamini is my clone. She gets me, all the time. We go through the same thing now, somehow. I just thank God that she's in my life. I've this feeling that we were destined to meet. Long story, but I'm glad that she's in my life.

You see,
It's not how long you know someone, but it's how much you know about someone.
Thank you all.
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. (: