I hate this stupid feeling. I just feel like there's no escape now. I always felt like there was a way out, but no. I'm stuck here. I'm stuck in this life. I hate that I'm forced to smile. It gets tiring to pretend for so long. Just a few seconds of letting go of that smile, and you're asked, 'What's wrong. What happened.' I just feel like shutting people out, for now. I just need to shut people out. It gets depressing, but whatever. I can't have people there all the time. People aren't there all the time anyway. It's just you against the world.
Some people come for a reason. They help you out in that part of your life, and they'll leave. But the impact they'll make would be amazing. You'd long for them to come back in your life, but it'll never be the same again. Because they're the ones that help you through a certain time in your life. New ones come, and help you out. People come, people go.
But, some stay forever. I need the people I have now to stay forever. That's what I wanted the other time, but they all left in the end. Doesn't matter. Sooner or later, you'd get used to it. I know I am.