He asked, how are you.
I said Im fine, what about you.
He said everythings okay but somethings aren't.
I reminisced the past.
He laughed.
He asked how is she.
I paused.
He looked at me and smiled.
I said, you should know the answer.
He smiled and sighed.
He knows.
& I realised at that instant,
what a big mistake I made.
I always thought I had forgotten and I'm okay with all of it.
But truth be told,
I've yet to forgive.
There's a lot of anger that still exists
that I'm not aware of.
When that certain past comes up again,
thoughts that usually don't come to my mind, starts coming.
I don't know which part of me all these bitterness comes from,
but its that part of me that I'm very afraid of.
I hope these thoughts don't turn into actions.
But I think I'm safe for now.
I'm okay.
I will be okay.
I will forgive.
I will.
I should.
I must.
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F & J, I feel 100% responsible for the grade we received.
I'm sorry.
[I told you guys that I hated the poster from the start. Hah.]
I should've put in more effort.
I'm sorry for letting you guys down.
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ONE MORE PAPER TO GO.
failureforlife
Losing Skippy, Adapting to the new church, Failing.
I don't need all of this now.