Dear friend, I'm really sorry for your lost. I know how much it must be hurting you now. The pain is the testimony of how much you loved them. Yes, it is supposed to hurt this bad. But trust me honey, it'll get better. I'm going to help you through it. I'm sure you know that. I've got your back, just like how you've always got mine. You're going to be strong. May God bless you with all the strength and comfort that you need right now. :D I love you dearestest.