I hate goodbyes.


2 incidents involving goodfreakingbyes.

First.
After STB lesson, our dearest Fiza went to talk to a teacher about something. What really hit me was when the teacher said, "And your friends are willing to let you leave?"
There was silence. I started to tear, cause none of us can bare to let her go. If i'd to come back to school without my Fiza, it's going to be hard. Not just for me, but for the rest too. And i won't want to say goodbye. It's too hard. - I hate it. Goodbyes really sucks like a bunny covered with shit.

Second.
At the airport, when my Akka was about to leave, she cried. She couldn't even say her goodbye. She wanted to be strong, but who can be right? Sigh. Giving her a big tight hug was all that i could offer her for the trip back. Who knows when she'll be back. I'm really going to miss her. All the times I spent with her when she was here, was so fun. Sleeping over in her house, the late night outings, the heart to heart talks and everything. The weeks that she was here for, meant so much to me. So many things to talk about and so many things to laugh over. All our secrets. Someone who always has the right things to say. Even though we'll still keep in contact through MSN and Emails, it won't be the same. It was so hard to say goodbye. -And again, I hated it.

On the way back home from the airport, was at the back of the van with Bennet and his mother, Ben and i just kept talking and talking about our church things. Sleeping beside him and just talking. I was very tired, I just fell asleep. He tried waking me up by calling my handphone, but I continued sleeping.

I think i'm just so mentally tired and not so much of physically..
Ahhwell.



PISANGS LOVE.
Esp Fiza, the sick FUMBOH.
Please take care of yourself.
I love you.