Went to sanah akka's grandma's funeral. akka, cheer up. she's in a better place (: went to mandai crematorium and then back to the place.
i don't know why.. i like to attend funerals. especially those with the services in pasir panjang church. okay imagine this.. you're facing the front, the pastor is infront, saying things. the coffin is in the front. the immediate family occupies the front rows, and the rows behind are all the relatives and friends. as the pastor speaks, you can hear very soft music at the background. and then it's time to pay your last respect. this very sad and slow music plays from the organ. it's just the organ. one by one, people stand up and head towards the coffin. sniffs here and there can be heard. they go by the left side of the coffin, place a flower in the coffin and walk by the right side of the coffin. everyone is seated back in their seats. it's time for the immediate family to have some time with the deceased. the soft organ sound becomes softer and slowly fades away. what makes up for the lost music are cries and sniffs. the place is so quiet with so much pain and hurt in the air. you can feel the sadness in the hall. and slowly, it's time to bring the coffin to the cemetery. as the undertakers (?) carry the coffin away, you can hear loud cries. they just can't let go. they don't want them to go. but it's time they left... for good
and i'll always remember that day. when you left me. when you left all of us. the pain and hurt.. i still feel. just as fresh as the first day i found out, it was real. mummy dearest, you'll always be missed.
was with vino all the way. she's so crazy. but.. i love her :D thanks ahhh dearest. for everything.