words of a broken heart.me: appa! (dad in tamil) wanna go out and eat dinner?
dad: where are you? you go out issit?
me: NO! i'm at home la.
dad: you want to go out for dinner i must bring you out issit? can go out but cannot go to church la.
i hung up the phone.
fucker.
i'm gonna put myself up for adoption.
or i pray i'm adopted.
not as if you went to church every sunday. just because you're in the committee you think you're so big. i've been to church more times than you, i bet. infront of all of em you act so nice. its so fucking disgusting. i'm sorry i cant control my temper infront of them. i'm sorry i show how i really feel infront of them. i'm sorry im not sucha good actor like you. i'm sorry. just give me a break. why can't you just act like i never existed. just like all the times i tried talking to you, but you acted like i was invisible. just do the same. but you need me. cause when my aunts and uncles boast about their kids, you only talk about me. why not my brothers ? you just use me, you asshole. get a life & give me a break.
& if i mess up my listening compre exam tmr, i'll blame you. cause you're always blaming me for the stupidest things. i've been fine for a long time, but you've started your freaking nonsense. im rebellious cause i've to defend myself. you've pulled my aunty to your side. i'm on my own. i'm not sorry for sticking up for my rights. you've forced it on me. get with the times, you shit.